Depression Confession

New year, same me. Obviously. At least I'm consistent?! Before the holidays I saw a doctor for the first time in a lot of years (IĀ literally see one every 5-ish years because,Ā fuck that). She was recommended to me by a friend who also hates the medical profession and after talking about potentially registering with her... Continue Reading →


To Diagnose, or Not to Diagnose…

... that is the question. Well, my therapist has questioned whether an additional diagnosis should be added to my already-colourful list. At first I thought she was joking and I've laughed it off several times in the past - not because I think it's a laughable diagnosis but more so because it's embarrassingly accurate and... Continue Reading →

The Power of ‘Fucking’

Oftentimes I'm asked not to swear, or told to tone down my language, or I'm given a death-stare by somebody within earshot. When this happens, I feel this dark cloud of shame come across me. It's an old, familiar cloud and it covers me from head to toe every single time. Usually when shame strikes,... Continue Reading →

I’m Doing It… I Think.

Well, I had what I would deem a 'good' therapy session yesterday. Say wuuut?? I've legitimately never left a therapist's office and thought, 'Hmm, I think that went okay'. I usually want to cry or scream or kick something or yell at everyone because I get so frustrated with having to talk about the shit.... Continue Reading →

A Crack of Light.

I'm going to preface this with the fact that I'm having a pretty good day. I don't feel the weight of the relentless cloud of doom, I've slept pretty well despite some weird-ass nightmares that I don't usually struggle with, and I've had a productive week at work. So, that's GOOD. And I am very... Continue Reading →

A Work in Progress

Well, Week 1 of 'do running and yoga' is complete. It was a mixed bag to say the least, but here's a wrap-up of the general activities: Yoga I made it to a total of five classes this week - four 'regular' sessions and one dedicated to all things legs. I hear the phrase "body,... Continue Reading →

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